Sound of Madness

Update on my life. The kids are doing great. Man, we are so blessed to have such amazing adults. Jesse has moved to Missouri with Hannah to pursue a new career. Wade is busy being a father to my amazing grandchild. Gabby is back to school to be a nurse practitioner. Kaelan is still going to Spokane Community for a Criminal Justice degree. Emily is still at Whitworth College looking at getting into the psychological aspect of Criminal Justice. And Noah is finding his way still, but making it work in Spokane. All out of the house and living on their own without our help. Sometimes that is the greatest accomplishment in this day and age. I'm doing well with the Mortgage gig. I've never worked harder in my life, but I love it and the money is stupid. Dan and I are finding a new love of RVing. Every weekend we are either planning or going. I love spending time with him. After your children grow up you realize how extremely short life is. So we are just trying to liv

Well I did it! I passed my mortgage exam and am now waiting for an offer letter so I can resign from media finally. The feeling I have is a HUGE weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I no longer have to work for an industry that is treading water. That is exactly how I have been feeling the past year. Not like I am in a boat, rowing toward greatness. Literally in the water, exhausted from swimming, about to drown. Everyone that has half a brain has already or is getting out of the water. It's time. I am ready. Bring on the next chapter in the "Book of Michele"! New beginnings are scary, but Dan needs me back. My mental state has been horrible, and he needs ME back. Great things ahead!

Been thinking about a big career change lately. I'm getting to the stage in my life that I have learned all I can learn about the media industry. The longer I am in it, the more I absolutely despise it. Why you ask? Let me enlighten you. I consider this industry similar to politics. Who is kissing who's butt and how hard seems to be the norm. I am not that person. I like to be genuine and not fake with people. I tell it how it is and I will NOT take you to lunch to get business out of you. I'll take you to lunch if you are my friend and I sincerely like you. Another reason I am starting to loathe this business is the decline in advertisers thanks to DIGITAL. Radio and TV are no longer the best option when it comes to getting the word out there. They are still effective, yes. But corporations are not taking into consideration that there is attrition and budgets need to be set at a REALISTIC goal. The "10% increase year over year" rule is simply ridicu

It hit me last night that I have not taken the time to write lately. It's been months. Whatever, I'm here yet again. I used to want to write as a form of therapy. Now it takes on another role. I want to leave a legacy. Granted, I've never shared this blog with any of the kids. But someday I might. I want them to be smacked with the reality that I was never perfect, and that is the very fiber of humanity. No one is flawless and no one should be put on a pedestal. The older they get and the more mistakes they make as adults, the more they will come to realize that. They will also come to realize that I love them so very much. So what's been going on with me? Where do I start. Major milestones: Gabriela got married and Noah graduated. Another milestone, I am going to be a grandmother. There was a quote on a show I watched last night, "I feel guilty for not feeling guilty". That is exactly how I feel about the kids going off and moving out to start ne

For weeks after I took this new Director of Sales position I had in the back of my mind that it would be temporary. That I would be taking my tests for mortgage lending and moving into the world of straight commission. Yesterday as I was talking to a friend of mine (who asked how my job was going), it dawned on me that I really am happy here. Right here, in this position, for this company. I love everyone I work with for the most part. I feel like we are all family. I am compensated well. I'm comfortable with what I do and I feel like I am fairly good at it! So it got me thinking as I hung up the phone...are we ever really satisfied?! I suppose its human nature to always want more or different. I think because Dan and I started out financially struggling, and having so much drama early on, I've come to be more content with my life and very thankful for being so blessed. I appreciate what I have. Why would I want to leave where I work to do something else that I am not

I have a vacation home on the brain. Never in a million years would I have ever imagined it being a reality. But it is becoming more real the more we pay things off. Goal: Get something on the beach by next summer. We are looking at Westport. The property is cheap, and it is a nice little sleepy coastal town. Oh, and it has a brewery... So win win. ;) I love having something to look forward to. Gives me purpose.