Sound of Madness

There is a calming feeling that becomes me when I think of the things I have endured in my life, opposed to where I am right now. The many times in my existence that I had wished I was born someone else are many. The nights I cried myself to sleep are also...many. Now, however, there are no more sleepless nights, no more tears, and no more wondering why I was cursed. For the only thoughts that creep into my head are that of happiness, hope and freedom. 32 years and finally free from misery's grip. A prisoner in a dungeon deep Sat musing silently; His head was rested on his hand, His elbow on his knee. Turned he his thoughts to future times Or are they backward cast? For freedom is he pining now Or mourning for the past? ~Anne Bronte

That had to have been the best day of my life. The children did great, and everything turned out perfect. It was very romantic, and as we read our vows to each other, I had this sense of calmness fall over me. It was sureal. I am on a high right now. We were truly very happy. Long deep breaths are in order....Whew!

This has got to be the most chaotic week I will ever have. Hopefully by Saturday I wont be dragging myself down the aisle, barely awake. I seriously doubt I will sleep at all the next few days. I am not getting the dreaded cold feet though. I am actually looking forward to marrying that man. He has been so awesome lately. Amidst my craziness, he is calm and so helpful. 5 more days until the happiest day of my life.

Look into my eyes, what do you see? Admiration Pride Do you see? A look that says Everything will be okay You’ve calmed me Made me feel normal again Can you hear my heart? It beats for you Take my hand Walk with me a while Talk to me Tell me your fears I’ll listen My soul feels comfort The solitude has vanished I’ve been found No more hiding The moment you were born I knew I treasured you The perfect child Smiling so bright Thank you Jesse...You’ve rescued me more times than you know

Okay, I found this website. He is a photographer named Eolo Perfido. Check it out... http://www.eoloperfido.com/portfolio.htm What an amazing talent this man has! I think this pic is my favorite. It really rather depicts my life up until last year. I'd love to have that "eye" to be a great photographer. I think that it would be so rewarding to do it. Ah but alas, my calling is in the wine field. I'll be using more of my smelling senses to have that career. And leave the eyes to the photographers